Before We Split Up, Our Love Was Eternal

“I love you to love you and not to be loved because there is nothing I like so much as to see you happy.”

George Sand

A few days ago I lost the love of my life. It’s been three years of affection, understanding, and one of the most fascinating teachings I could keep in my heart. And this is what I want to share with you today.

We humans live love in many different ways. Ours was one that went way too fast, that gave us no time to think, think and feel. Certainly our love was unique; one normally only seen in the movies or in books. Every day I was more certain that our love was too good to be true. And so we both thought.

As the days passed, we both believed in a feeling of beauty and purity. We were blind to the feeling that we had found something so valuable and unique. This feeling led to the fact that we never wondered whether everything was going really well between us, whether we were really the one or the other, or whether we really fit together. That way we could never appreciate what we had and that is why it hurt us all the more when we gave up.

We were able to fly and be forever. Every time we met, our hugs, kisses, and minutes of love felt like the first time. Our hearts have been flooded and our inner emptiness has been filled. We were invincible and no one could destroy this magic.

With just one look, I felt that we would be together for life. When I met you in just a few hours, we began a journey without parting. Sometimes I think that this must have been our fault: to neglect what we had to do, never to stop and not to get to know each other better.

“We don’t learn to love when we meet the perfect person, but when we manage to see an imperfect person as perfect.”

Sam Keen

It is clear that when you find yourself in such a perfect moment, you don’t care about anything. I was sure that a unique and magical bond would keep us together. Such an incredible unit that made me want to follow you everywhere, and you felt the same way. With this feeling, we both wanted to build our lives without anything else mattering to us. And so we started our story in a frenzy.

So much so that we broke up and collided with each other in our own reality. We still didn’t know each other enough and time alone began to hurt us. Thus we were not able to empathize with the other, to understand him or to learn on our way. The mistake that got us so far that we didn’t know what to do.

And so it happened. It happened when we noticed that we weren’t as much to the other as we felt and thought. I realized that I wasn’t the person who should be with you all your life, and maybe you weren’t mine either.

It hurt to feel that you couldn’t please me, that we didn’t fit together, or that we were so different that we didn’t get along. We were flooded with negative feelings that no longer held a positive side. All of this brought us to the point where we didn’t like being together that much anymore, neither externally nor internally. We thought that only our body united us. Our hearts did not feel this need, the need to shine together in peace.

The sadness that we had felt for many days became huge and created a deep gap between us. They separated us. We no longer dreamed of a life for two and our desires began to take different paths. I felt totally empty. Speed ​​became our death sentence by speeding up our time and our love. The expiration relationship led me to give up, stop trying. It was unbelievable that you too would go, that our fairy tale and our wonderful story would come to an end.

They say building love is the easiest thing in our lives. But I didn’t know how. I gave up and was a coward. I let you go – and you let me. But we kept looking to the sky because I realized that our love had no end.

I am sure that in another place, in another life and maybe in another body, we will meet again and really love each other. That we learn together, understand each other, empathize with each other, enjoy and share a friendship. And even more.

I wish you the best so that you can always fly. You will always be in my heart where you will always flap your wings.

“True love is nothing other than the inevitable wish to help the other to be himself.”

Jorge Bucay